Once in a while, I find myself in a frustrating situation I didn’t expect, didn’t ask for, and definitely don’t like. Just the other day, one of those things happened, and it wasn’t fun. First I got mad, then I tried to justify my thinking, then I was sad, then I got depressed. I just felt like the whole world was against me and I wanted to go hide. Ever been there? Ok, yeah, I’m not alone. Some might call that a pity party.
I took it to the Lord and presented my entire case for acquittal of guilt and responsibility, in triplicate, single spaced, and backed up with scripture. Hmm, no relief, still depressed. Then I rebuked the devil for messing with me and trying to get me to be ineffective, yadda yadda. Yep, still depressed. Then I looked for excuses and reasons to justify my behavior, but nothing worked. As I sat there in frustration, the Lord simply spoke to my spirit, “You reap what you sow.” Oh. I was forced to take a good look at myself, my thought process, and my sin process. Ok, it all lines up with the Word, yep, my flesh was pretty upset and I was throwing a spiritual tantrum. You got me Lord. I sowed discord and I reaped discord. My bad.
Now here is the entry into the valley of decision. Do I maintain my innocence, justify my behavior and excuse my own selfishness or manipulation? Do I go along acting sorry but secretly puffing myself up because I know the better way? Or, do I release and submit every dark place in me to Jesus and ask for forgiveness. Do I humble myself and nail my pride and fear and flesh to the cross as Jesus did? Oh man, that’s the hard way. Now I have to ask my friends for forgiveness, and it’s hard! I could smack myself upside the head for being a dope yet again! I must get on my knees, ask for purity in my own heart, ask for clarity in my mind, and control over my fleshy soul. As I began to repent, I began to see my junk fall off me in chunks of yuk. My sin, my selfishness, my need for control and approval, dissipated into a fine mist and floated away. As I emptied myself of myself, Jesus filled me with Him. He is faithful. I do not have a spirit of fear, but of love, of power and of a sound mind. I have the mind of Christ. No weapon formed against me shall prosper. Everything the enemy would do to me for evil and destruction, the Lord will turn for my good and for His glory.
It’s clear, the only way to peace and freedom from the things of this world, from depression and sickness and inadequacies, and from my own self-imposed nonsense, is repentance. Cast your cares upon Jesus because He cares for you. He said in John 16:33: “These things I have spoken to you, that in Me, you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.” He said it, He then showed us how to live it, and asked us to believe it. It’s there, He has overcome the world. We live in it in the authority of the name above all names. We are subject to the world’s decay, but we absolutely can overcome in Jesus. That doesn’t mean some fine day, it means now. And the truth shall set you free. So, by nailing our junk to the cross of Christ, we begin a journey of overcoming in peace, comfort and love. Sure, we have to be corrected and go through a fire once in a while, but that’s a time of refining, a time of purification. I choose to yield up to it and come out better equipped to serve as a vessel for God’s glory and honor. Praise the Lord for His unfathomable love.